Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Tuesday Prayer for 4/14/15: (Ghost)


Dear God:

It is easy to see Jesus in those people who are most like me because
I can see their flaws, clearly, and the intentions behind their hopes.
They are mine so
I know the intentions may be good (and
I know there is another side to every good intention.
I know there are hidden motivations that move faster than I can turn my head towards them).

Sometimes, I can see Jesus in those who are different from me and
sometimes that vision becomes
clouded and
confused.
I look for Jesus in them (until the point
that I see my own image reflected in their eyes
and then begin to serve that Jesus
made in my own image).

(Then, there are those I am afraid of.

They walk in to the room and,
they may say, “Peace,” and
they may say, “Why are you frightened?” and
they may say, “Look at me” and

I am too frightened to see this Jesus
even as they eat with me and say
words of assurance.

I am afraid of this Jesus so, all too often,
I back away,

Like I’m seeing a ghost.)

Amen.

Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Tuesday Prayer for 3-31-15: Always Again

Dear God:

I remember one of those times I was holding my head in my hands.
My heart was in my throat and beating so fast it was making it difficult to breathe.
My heart was beating so hard it felt like it was rocking my body.
I had failed.  
I had failed, badly.
My failure had caused other people pain and I was so sorry and so ashamed and it was so clear that any sense of worth was spilling at my feet like loose change.

I could talk about how things got better. I could talk about how important that moment was. I could say all these things but,
what is also true,
is that, well…

We are all time travelers of sorts and these are times we visit everyday. As I remember this one, my heart leans towards the places it was at this moment and starts to do some of the things it did. These moments are not in the “was.” This moment is always with me.
Lent comes when it comes. Its not just forty days once a year but a part of
every
forty
minutes
along with sabbath and Easter and funerals and baptisms and all these other things that mark the times as broken and beautiful. Lent comes along and we are at the table as our love and our betrayal and our failure and our hope and our pain share bread and wine in the presence of genuine belly laughs and smiles forced around gritting teeth.
This, we find, is what wholeness is. Healing becomes integration.
This is the truth that sets us free and defeats the fear of death eventually (though not forever).

I remember one of those times I was holding my head in my hand and, then, taking a deep breath. I remember sitting up, looking around and sighing. I remember looking up, stretching my back, tipping back my head, placing my hands on my knees, and getting ready.

Amen.

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Tuesday Prayer for 3/17/15: Deathly

 Inspired by John 12:20-33

From http://pixgood.com/empty-space.html

Dear God:

As the sun starts to remain in the sky just a little bit longer every day,
Lent comes along and says,
“Not yet. Not quite yet.”
So, in spite of the light, I settle down into the darkness and am reminded that

I will die,
I will fail and
I am human.

And then come the questions;

What will I do with this life?
Will I live and wonder as fully as I can?
Will I be faithful and loving enough to risk failure over and over again?
Will I roll around in my humanness and
use
it
all
up?

I settle into the darkness; drawn away from all those shiny things that call me like a moth to the flame. I settle down into the darkness and feel my own heartbeat, hear my own breath and smell my unwashed skin.  I settle down into the darkness, leaving other things behind, left outside this Lenten space. I settle down into the darkness of “the less” as room is made for so
much
more.

I will die,
I will fail and
I am human
and for now,
I will live,
I will risk and
I am.

I am.

I am.

I am.

Amen.

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

Tuesday Prayer for 3-10-15: How can I say thanks?

Inspired by Psalm 107


Dear God:


Someone once told me that its almost impossible to begin to understand the Psalms until after you have turned 34.  The idea was that you had to have been desperate enough
and hurt enough
and have had screwed up enough
to understand that the Psalms were more than dramatic hyperbole;
that people could feel so low that being lifted up


mattered.


I am coming up on 47
(and I remember thinking 40 was the age people stopped being happy and fun)
and one of the parts the Psalms teach that I still struggle to live with is gratitude.  


I have had grace wrap around me like a blanket.
I have love in my life almost everyday.


I rarely attribute these things to God in a real way. I prayed for them, even.
The Psalmist sings - sings - about what God has done. I do not but,


oh,


I want to.

Amen.

Thursday, March 5, 2015

Thursday post for 3/7/15: No justice? No passing the peace.

"Remember that you are dust, and to dust you shall return."


This is how Lent begins.  We have the opportunity to be marked with ashes and these words.  We’re reminded that we have this life - this one life - to pray and serve and to live fully.  We have the opportunity to reflect on how we get in the way of living in to this faithful life.  We’re reminded that we’re called to make sure that we don’t get in the way of our sisters and brothers having the same opportunity, too.


It feels as though Lent started early this year.  Even though the problems exposed were far from new, the events in Ferguson, Missouri reminded us how far we are from the kin-dom of God.  We have a political, religious, economic and social system that was initially built to perpetuate the values of those who were white, heterosexual, Christian, American and male supremacists though enslavement, genocide, economic oppression, religious oppression and social engineering.  Its a system that establishes a supremacist ideal of logic, beauty and physical ability that considers those who don’t match up as insane, ugly and physically deficient.  Its a system that is so weak in its initial premise that it requires forced or underpaid labor to uphold it.  Its a system that only sees the value of what is natural in the profit it can bring.  It is a system that incarcerates, tortures and sometimes kills those who won’t serve it’s ends; those who rebel against it; those involved in crimes it does not authorize; and anyone who comes close to threatening it.


I walk in to Lent knowing that I am complicit.  No, I’m not always conscious of how I’m complicit but that’s a form of privilege, too.  No, I’m not always the most direct perpetrator of the most heinous of these actions but - through my taxes and the way I spend my money - I have funded them.  No, I don’t speak in favor of any of these actions - I frequently speak against them - but I’ll sometimes choose the comfort of an even more deafening silence.  No, I didn’t start these systems but I am frequently willing to receive the benefits these systems dole out.


These systems are the children of the systems that conspired to torture and kill Jesus.  This isn't all of what Lent's about but its a large important part of what Lent's about.


I know that for many people, giving something up during Lent or doing something differently is an important part of living into Lent.  Sure, for some folks these practices resemble New Year's resolutions more than anything else but I also recognize that for many others giving up something - also known as fasting - is a deeply moving spiritual practice.  Even for those folks choosing to do something different for Lent its a choice to make room for God or deeply living into our humanity.  Both practices set aside things filling up our lives so that more room can be made for a practice of experiencing God and listening to God's leading.


Many of our churches have within their worship services a Prayer of Confession followed by the Words of Assurance and then the Passing of the Peace.  What if, for the rest of Lent, we used the Prayer of Confession to focus on our complicity with systems of oppression and fasted from the Words of Assurance and the Passing of the Peace?  What if the time normally used for these things was used for sharing ways people can resist these systems or to drill down more deeply into one aspect of these realities?  What if white churches reflected on their complicity with racism?  What if affluent churches reflected on their addiction to money?  What if this time was left as an aching space in which instead of asking for God's assurance, we ask for God's help?  What if this was an act of protest by churches to reject comforting words when so many are in need for us to be partners in liberation? We would fast from assurance as a reminder that too many are never assured.  We would fast from passing the peace as a reminder that for too many, peace has been denied.


Within church tradition, one way Lent was recognized was by not using the word "Alleluia" during worship; a word that celebrates God's presence.  Some churches even have a service during which they "bury the Alleluia" and Alleluia doesn't return until Easter.  Fasting from the Words of Assurance and the Passing of the Peace would be inline with this tradition.


This fast wouldn't exclude giving comfort to those who are suffering or sharing peace with those who need it.  It would be a way to, corporately, recognize we have a long way to go and need Christ's help to get there and living in to the spiritual discomfort.

Think about it.  Pray about it.  Try it. No justice?  No passing the peace.

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Tuesday Prayer for 3/3/15: Fiercly

Inspired by Psalm 19

Dear God:

I remember the first time I saw the Grand Canyon.
It was a full moon on Halloween.  We came through the forest and, suddenly, there it was; all dressed in grandeur and awe; darkness lit by silver.  I did not believe it.  It was far too big.  It was far too wide. With the thumb and index finger of my right hand I pinched the skin on my left.

I remember another time when Ron talked about the stars.
Several of were laying on the desert floor and he talked about immensity and time and distances.  My two hands held on to the earth as I leaned out into the universe and looked around.  It kept me up that night.  It was so big and we were so small and, still, it didn't make that moment any less important.

I remember holding my son.
It was awhile after he was born and the fact that I'd had something to do with this life in my arms really started to sink in.  This was life right there in my arms and it was delicate and strong.  I studied his eyes and he studied mine.  They were wide open and infinite.  It didn’t matter that there were billions of these; this one precious child.

And there was that day I felt as though I was in the womb of God.
That day I felt You seeing the beauty and awe in me.
That day I felt You seeing me in the vastness of the universe but still important.
That day You, as Life itself, reminded me I was life itself.

Amen.

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Tuesday Prayer for 2/10/15: Sanity

Inspired by Mark 9:2-9

Dear God:

Once in awhile, everything is clear.
The clouds part, all is illuminated and
All of history makes sense as it lives in to
this
moment.
Once in awhile, everything is clear.
The positions of faith and certainty flip,
I walk with confidence on mist as the ground it covers becomes
exposed as
illusion.
Once in awhile, everything is clear.
I am not nearly as alone as I was certain I was and
those of other times and other places name
this moment
as sacred.

Once in awhile, everything is clear.

Then, the other sanity returns. 
The words "Tell no one" find their place.
The secrets that broke through become secrets, again.

(The secrets that broke through become secrets, again).

My mouth makes the shape of an


Amen.

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Tuesday Prayer fo 1/6/15: Arrival

Mike Denton
Tuesday Prayer for 1/8/15

(from http://www.universaldesignresource.com)

One: What are we getting ready for?
Many: The time of waiting has past.  Christ is among us.
One: What are we getting ready for?
Many: And what do we need to let go of?
One: What are those things we need to set aside?  What are those old ideas we need to release?
Many: What is the freedom we need to bind ourselves to?
One: What are the greater things yet to come?
Many: What are the greater things yet to come?
One: What are we getting ready for?
Many: The time of waiting has past.
One: Christ is among us.

All: Christ is among us.

Saturday, December 6, 2014

Stones (or AdVent)

Before you demand that young man
puts down that stone or
puts down those matches
let me suggest that you first know
why he
picked
it
up and

ask

(pray, maybe)

ask

If you would speak to
Christ
this way.

Yes, I mean Jesus that
young man of color
born in an occupied state; that
Child of God;
that son of Mary;
KILLED BY THE STATE AND THE CHURCH
who
Got so angry he
turned over tables at the temple
while God was whispering
in
his
ear.

Ask him why he did this,
Even in the face of overwhelming force.
Ask him why he would do this thing that would do nothing
to advance his agenda and could, likely,
get
him
killed.
Ask him.

And, then, ask that young man you see with a stone
That young man you see with matches
why they picked these things up
and 
hear 
it.

Hear what you hear
as an act of devotion, of faith, of prayer and
no matter what they may say or
yell or
shout or
how they deafen you with silence
listen

Listen.

Listen.

Then, pick up your own matches.
Light your advent wreath for Jesus that
young man of color
born in an occupied state; that
Child of God;
that son of Mary;
KILLED BY THE STATE AND THE CHURCH
Yes, that Prince of Peace…

Then, set that candle of Joy aside,
and replace it

with a stone.

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Tuesday Prayer for 11/18/14: Matthew 25 Call to Worship

Inspired by Matthew 25:31-46


One: Jesus, we hear you::
Left side of congregation: I was hungry...
Right side of congregation: And you gave me food.  I was thirsty...
Left: And you gave me something to drink.  I was a stranger…
Right: And you welcomed me. I was naked...
Left: And you gave me clothing. I was sick...
Right: And you took care of me. I was in prison...
Left: And you visited me.
One: Jesus, we hear you:
All: “Just as you did it to one of the least of these who are members of my family, you did it to me.”
One: We hear you.  
Right: This is what we want to hear.  
Left: This is what we long to hear.
One: And this is what makes it so hard to hear you when you say:
All: “Just as you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to me.”
All: (Silence)
One: Forgive us.
Left: Forgive us.
Right: Forgive us.
All: Forgive us.
All: (Silence)
One: We know you love us.  We know you do.
All: Help us embrace it.
One: We want to know your presence here.  Help us remember that the best way to do so is make every meal a communion and every table Christ’s table...
Left: And that the meal is not whole until the Hungry Christ is fed.
One: Help us remember that every cup is a communion cup…
Right: And that our dry souls will find life when the Thirsty Christ drinks.
One: Help us remember that when we welcome in the Stranger Christ…
All: It is we who are less lonely.
One: Help us remember that we must clothe the Naked Christ…
Left: Before we can dress our altars with integrity.
One:  Help us remember that by caring for the Sick Christ…
Right: We are healed.
One: Help remember that by accompanying the Imprisoned Christ…
One: We are set free.
Left: We are set free.
Right: We are set free.
All: We are set free.  Amen.