Tuesday Prayer for 3/17/15: Deathly

 Inspired by John 12:20-33

From http://pixgood.com/empty-space.html

Dear God:

As the sun starts to remain in the sky just a little bit longer every day,

Lent comes along and says,

“Not yet. Not quite yet.”

So, in spite of the light, I settle down into the darkness and am reminded that

I will die,

I will fail and

I am human.

And then come the questions;

What will I do with this life?

Will I live and wonder as fully as I can?

Will I be faithful and loving enough to risk failure over and over again?

Will I roll around in my humanness and

use

it

all

up?

I settle into the darkness; drawn away from all those shiny things that call me like a moth to the flame. I settle down into the darkness and feel my own heartbeat, hear my own breath and smell my unwashed skin.  I settle down into the darkness, leaving other things behind, left outside this Lenten space. I settle down into the darkness of “the less” as room is made for so

much

more.

I will die,

I will fail and

I am human

and for now,

I will live,

I will risk and

I am.

I am.

I am.

I am.

Amen.